y did i go bali in the middle of sem?

b cos the tickets wher damn cheap!!

room rates was bout RM 90++ pernight

i went 5d 4n

so in total it was LESS than RM 500 for flight n accomodation..

so can v NOT GO?

so i lazy wan go into details,

so just show sum pics lah..

* for last year's phuket trip, u guys can view the pic's here:






* long post. bout my Breast lumpS.

wed 11 feb : midnite. i lay in bed, gettin ready to sleep. i turned to lay on my side. i might hv felt sumtin not right coming. my hands went to it. my heart skipped a beat. i knew i was rite. it wasn't ther b4. it is now. i noe bcos i checked myself in front of the mirror 3 weeks ago when i got a memo in Cleo (breast cancer self examination).



thu 12 feb : called mom to ask her wher can i get it checked. her response was : 'u hv it cos u dye hair to much!' @.@ roll eyes* WAT THE F*CK? I HAVE A LUMP IN MY BREAST BCOS I DYE MY HAIR? i really truelly couldn't accept the statement. i went to serdang hospital, they dont accept walk-in, they need referal. i went to a family doc. once in, i sat. it just came out : doc, i hv a lump in my breast. she checked, yes got lump. to me, NO SURPRISE. i oredi noe. she asked wher would i want her to refer. serdang hospital i thot, nearer i study ther.



fri 13 feb : wif referal letter. gyne department (the guy at reception told me). i was suppose to put my letter n wait. 1 hour. 'alice yew' , i walk ther. u ni, salah tempat la, kena pegi itu pembedahan am. ther was 3 nurses ther. they look at me. THEY ask me, sakit ape? BREAST ADE LUMP. Oooo... i walk over to pembedahan am cursing. i buta-buta waited 1 jam. its was empty. suda mau tutup. i sat, she took a lot at the refereal letter. ask me put my name, contact num, add in a piece of paper. told me to go home wait for telephone cal. ok, suda bole balik. tunggu kita punye cal, dlm masa DUA MINGGU. walao.



sat. sun. mon. pass...



tue 17 feb : phone ring. call from hospital serdang. the nurse told me dua haribulan enam. i thot i heard wrong. 2nd JUNE??? or FEB 6th? but i clearly noe that its pass valen's, so how can it b feb. i ASKED, JUNE? yea. WAH, lamenya! nurse said : according to doc letter. sementara itu kalo ade sakit atau nipple ade kuar discharge bole pegi emergency ward. WAKAO. lidat ma si liao. 4+ months time. from red bean oso can grow to apple size lo!! (it was guli size that time) yes, i'll admit i've ALWAYS wanted bigger boobies. but who wants this!? consult mom n dad. dad's insurans could cover for us. can go to his panel doc.



wed 18 feb : drove to KPJ (kajang specialist hospital). waited. called in. got lump, checked. how long, got pain?blablabla... send me down to radiologist for ultrasound. yes got lump 1.1 x 1 cm. according to my doc its BIG. i think so too. he then ask me. when wana operate? hmm... i was goin bali march 5. thot wana wait til aftr the trip. but 3 mor weeks? i asked for the doc's opinion. he say up to u, i can do it anytime. 2mr oso can. called mommy daddy. OK, surgery on friday. now doc punya turn ask me wats the rush!? kanasai, just now say i can do anytime i wan. (he noes i wan go bali, if do liao my wound might not heal in time to go swim.) but better get it done n over rite? so friday it was. i just noe that. i'll b goin in2 surgery on fri mornin 0830. i was to fast from thu midnite onwards. i dont need to stay ward, can go home the same day. btw, the nurse from kpj later call me : alice yew, u tgk doctor tak bayar la. omg. hahaha. i sat ther waited this n that n 4gt pay! hehe.. ok ok, campur skali yg surgery hari jumaat la. ok.

thu 19 feb : went to eat my fav malat pan mien. had my last sugar free candy at 2300 then my fast has officially started. mom then told me that my surgery would b whole body anesthetic. cos local dont need to fast. * i thot it was local. cos i din ask the doc.



fri 20 feb : i was suppose to drive to the hospital on my own. but at 0630 daddy walk in my room n ask: alice, wat time u need to go? i said b4 0830. ok, then u wait for me, i go office then come back fetch u. mommy came in to say sumtin to, but i cant rmbr. i woke at 0745, got dressed n went down. dad was back(so fast!).

0830 i registered myself n they took me to day care. the nurse say me n say : aiyo... gal,u cant hv yr nails colored.aiyo.. how i noe? nobody say wat! then i had to remove all of the mani n pedicure that i freshly did 2 days ago!!shit..

0900 the nurse handed me the dress that i need to change in2. its the green wan with the back open. up til then i was stil ok, i could stil flip thru mag's n read the contents. the nurse came gain, wif a small bowl. then look n me n say, nak ambik darah. ok, i stil can accept. so the cold cotton touches yr skin, then u expect a SLIGHT pain when the needle goes in. (in my heart i shouted!! cos it was pain!!) ok, nvm i stil can stand it. then i felt she turn the needle!! i shouted out loud. it was DAMN PAIN!! then she pull out the needle n ask me. sakit ke? omg* the bad news is. darah TAK CUKUP la. OMG OMG. means need to take AGAIN. my eyes widen at her. she ask me, takut ke? i dumbly nodded my head. saya pegi amek jarum. i waited. she was back, on my left side. just now amek RIGTH side, now LEFT. thank god the 2nd wan was OK normal slight pain.

0930 she came. ok, suda mau tolak g bawa. up til then i was STILL OK. i put my mag, then lie on the bed. they started to wheel me out of the day care. i could stil smilingly wave bye to my dad(he had his serious face on, i noe he's worried). b4 enterin the ward. the nurse asked me sum questions which i cant rmbr now. but i rmbr them quite happy wif the answers i gave. (said sumtin that proves that i was stil ok up til that point) then it was in the anest room. opp was a patient aftr surgery. next to me, another patient b4 surgery. i saw the clock was 0932. it was the LONGEST 15 MINUTES IN MY LIFE. it was AGONIZING. seriously i was DAMN NERVEOUS!! my legs was SHAKING. i tell u. its SCARY. i had to think bout happy things to calm myself n make my legs not shake.but it oni works for like 3 seconds.

0948 the anest doc came n jab the needle in my left upper wrist. i was then wheel in2 the operatin theatre. i had to climb on2 the operatin table myself. gosh* (i thot they usually lift the patient?) the anest doc then gv a jab, which i started to feel sleepy. 2nd jab. in 3 seconds i was unconcious.

1135 the next thing i knew. i was in the anest ward.

1230 they wheel me back to the daycare. i met an unexpected sum1. daddy was stil ther. he seem to appear momentarily. i still fell in2 deep sleep off n on.

1345 mom n gary came. dad was stil doin that skjap ade, skjap takda, then eventually lunchtime ended n he left.

1500 the great surgeon came. he ordered the specimen (LUMP) to b brought up n shown like a prize to mom n me. (i oredi looked at it wif hatred when they wheeled me up to the ward). had to look at it again. wat came out of his mouth completely STUN ME. he said when he was surgically removin THE LUMP, he notice another 1 tiny weeny 1. ok, bad enuf. i hv 2 BLOODY lumps. wait wait, not finish yet.. when he was about to remove, he saw another small 1. FUCK!! i hv 3 FUCKIN lumps in my breast. DAMNIT. it was total disaster. nightmare. i was oredi in a daze. later on i got the report that 4 x 2 x 1.5 cm of breast flesh was removed. OMFG.

1530 i could b discharge. i got dressed. but when i tried standing. my world was spinning. in the end mommy asked for a wheel chair. gary push me to the carpark. i went home n sleep tru the evenin. woke up midnite.

common answers to the questions i got :
no, its NOT breast cancer.
its FIBROADENOMATA. fuck it.
YES, i stil hv my breast. (they just removed the lumps)
NO, i DONT KNOW wat causes it.


* i had 2 weeks of MC leave.


ok, it has been a month since i've last blogged here.
of cos damn alot happened.
i had a surgery.
(not in the mood to talk bout that now, mayb another day.)
wat i wana say is:
i've made the decision.
i just hope i BLOODY stick to it!


*the word 'to' is use to describe the feeling of down/unhappy

mom called to tell i might get the car...
btw, i forgot to tell...
i'm gettin the light blue proton saga...
then mommy said daddy wanted to put tinted glass...
i asked if he had contact for that...?
then mommy cut me short by saying
'come back oni talk, u're wasting my credits'
WTF...?
enuf said_








btw... i bought 2 things in sg wang on my mon shopping trip
think they're a lil pricey for sg wang stuff!!
a shirt dress - RM 54
a low cut boot - RM 90
both stuff are in grey
the movie 'AUSTRALIA' is GOOD!!!

(ignore the pic if u din't miss me~)

Nice to everyone they meet. - yes i think/hope..

Can't make up their mind. - so F**CKIN TRUE la!!
Have own unique appeal. - i think so? or at least ppl say i do lah..
Creative, energetic, and very social. - creative in some things, energeticYES, VERY SOCIAL YES YES YES!!
Hates to be alone. - WAH!! how they noe a?
Peaceful, generous. - hmm,i'm generous...
Very loving and beautiful. - with make up oni beautiful count ma?
Flirtatious. - hehe... got meh?
Give in too easily. - true true...

Procrastinators. - wow, DEFINETLY ME, so ME!!
Very gullible. - very very ALICE too...
9 years of bad luck if you do not forward. THIS IS BULLSHIT!!

we got new that grandpa was motionless in his bed...
a line ran through me head : 'grandpa pass away?'
actions where immediatly taken, plans to head north...
dinner was a daze, evry was deep in their own thoughts...
by a blink of an eye, (not a blink act, the journey to taiping took 4hours!!)
we where at the doors of grandpa's house...
a yellow cloth partition was build, inside laid grandpa's body...
uncles, aunts all started to arrive gradually...
the news spread pretty fast~
so from ther goes the funeral... etc etc

wat i wana say here is :

the ppl who took care of the process of the funeral ceremony was LOUSY!!
dear grandpa might hv pass away on sun noon,
body discovered in the evening by my aunt who went visiting...
but the funeral parlor ppl just laid him on planks & covered his body with cloth..
wtf!? wher is the coffin? no make up? no injection? no dry ice?
by mon mornin... flies was swarming around the entire house...
& wtf the funeral ppl didn't help us to do the death report...
our mourning family had to rush to the police station n all,etc...
& without the death letter they cant come in to do the things...
WTH!!? i thot we pay them the package money to takecare of everything?
by noon oni the ppl came to set up the tents & all...
at 2.30pm oni the coffin came...
but the STUPID ppl didn't seems to clean up my grandpa or gave him an injection to preserve the dead body a lil longer...really wtf wtf wtf...
the ceremony & all now seem so long ago...

my family got back to KL & when we thot live was back to normal...
we wher at nilai memorial when mom got the call...
granduncle pass away while takin his nap,gone at the age of 92...
kajang>nilai>kajang>johor in a day...
another funeral ceremony...

i've attended 2 funerals in a week!!
it may sound a lil fake...
few days ago i said my grandpa pass away, few days later granduncle...
u may think i'm lying... cos it sound a lil fake...
but i myself cant believe...
ther goes life...
you may nvr know wat comes next...